Back to work tomorrow

Today is my last day home with my beautiful baby boy. I've been dreading this day since before he was born. I have been on the verge of tears for the past week and today is no exception. I think I cried twice yesterday... it's only been once today (so far). This will be one of the hardest things I've ever done, but I know that we will all make it work. It's just going to take some time, tears, and lots of phone calls. It has been so amazing spending my days with Ethan for the past 12 weeks. It went by so fast, but I can't believe how much he has changed since he came into our lives. Everyday is something new and I think that is what hurts so much about this. I am going to miss those little changes. I won't see his every smile and hear his coos. Someone else will. Ugh... I hate the idea of it. But I will be able to spend my nights and weekends with him. And maybe he'll learn a little spanish at his new school. Wish me luck. It's going to be a rough couple of weeks, so think about me and Ethan. I know I'll be thinking of him.