Mom Guilt

Well, it has been a rough week. Not only did I go back to work, but I left my little man at daycare. That was hard. I'm sorry, it wasn't just hard, it was the hardest thing I've ever done! But he's doing great. I really think it is just me. He hasn't had any interruptions to his sleep. He's just as happy as ever. He's eating fine. There is no diaper rash. He's great. I'm the train wreck. They literally have to take him out of my hands in the morning. But it's getting better. I didn't cry today. Things are looking up! I talked to my mom about it and told her about how guilty I was feeling. (Of course, I'm crying during this conversation) She told me that she finally stopped feeling guilty after we went to school. Me: "IT TOOK FIVE YEARS TO STOP FEELING GUILTY????" Mom: "Uh, no. I'm talking about when you left for college." Really? Is it really going to last that long? I know he's fine. I just know he's not getting the one on one attention that I could give him if I stayed home. Oh well, I know that every working mother goes through this struggle. What is important is that I do like his daycare. They are sweet to him and sweet to us. They take care of my tooter and that is what matters. But I won't lie to you. This was a hard week.

Look at my big boy pushing up!

First day of school... (Momma's fake smile)

Before we left on the first day

Friday afternoon after our first week... I was so happy to be home!